I recently got rejected from a school that I had applied earlier this spring. For the fifth time.
But for the first time I got so close to getting in that I actually thought that this was it. That my perfect plan was coming true.
As I sat in front of the computer looking at a screen that didn’t have my name on it I realized that there is something called the perfect plan but it’s almost never meant to be like that. Without a hustle and without a “detour”. Without learning something first.
Not everything we do and create is gonna be perfect. Sometimes it’s good to accept that life is what it is. I have to admit that I’m still not very good at that…
Accepting the unfinished.
I always try to pursue perfection but mostly just to realize that it is unachievable and constant battle towards it just makes me unfulfilled.
We all have our flaws but when you get to know your flaws and weaknesses, it’s time to make them your strengths or at least learn from them. ‘Cause isn’t life a constant learning experience?
So I’m learning to love the process and letting myself go.
I’ll let you know a little secret: I love planning! Planning for future projects, trips etc. I love to plan so far a head and so precisely that I end up with so many goals that I can’t even fit into my notebook. Usually it breaks me when those goals don’t go as planned but now since I’m learning out from my perfectionism, it’s not the end of the world if something doesn’t go as I planned. I think that’s why I rose up so quickly from getting rejected ’cause if it’s meant to be, I’ll get there and if not, well: that’s life.
If everything we create isn’t always gonna be perfect, what’s point the of planning? What ifyou don’t plan at all? For the future or anything else. For your goals and for your dreams? Where would you be headed? Isn’t planning part of the journey? When you are thriving to go somewhere and you end up somewhere you didn’t thought you would. For example if I wouldn’t plan to go somewhere in my life, how could I ever realize the other option that didn’t even exist at first.
Would I have discovered it if I had just stayed still?
Don’t think so.
Skirt: Vero Moda
Shirt: Vero Moda
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell
So it’s good to have plans and vision but it’s also important not trying to force them to manifest precisely as you wrote it on your notebook or visualized it. That’s loving the process of life and going towards your dreams even if it doesn’t go as planned.
I have safely landed to Joensuu and began my lovely summer job as Pippi Longstockings! That of course meant that I had to transform my hair quite a bit. After a while I’m getting used this bright orange! Love this new hair ❤ What do you guys think? 🙂
Last post I wrote about how I’m longing for structure and luckily I can say that I’m getting there. Things are still a bit hectic and my body is a bit tired and stressed from all of this change and of course from the long wait caused by Uniarts. ‘Cause this is a personal blog and it’s no secret: I applied for one of hardest school to get in (TeaK) and now I’m waiting for the results to roll in tomorrow…
We’ve been busy rehearsing at Teatteri-Traktori and building our very own pool!!! So most of the time, I’m bear faced with just some random sweatpants on. On our days off, I’m making the most of it and dressing up a little. Still I manage to keep my look quite “sporty”!
Necklace: Second Hand
Fake Septum: Black Heart
Shoes: Nike Air
Cardigan: Noisy May
Hoping not to catch a cold, I’m off for rehearsals!
How are you doing? I’m doing quite okay. If you follow me on instagram, you know that lately I’ve been struggling with unemployment and all that jazz…
I’m longing for structure. Been learning new things about myself and about life in general but somehow I feel stuck. I’m ready for a change.
So welcome Spring!
Spring has never been my favorite season (I get allergy) and although it’s nice to see the nature blooming again, I’m more of a Summer and Fall kinda person.
And this Spring has been a lot of waiting. Waiting for the snowstorm to pass, waiting for the warmth, waiting to see my love, waiting for new things to come, waiting for change…
There are ideas stuck in my head. Knowledge yet to put into action. I’m on the edge. I can feel it. But this WAITING is driving me insane. Playing with time when I know it’s just an illusion. I need to stop, but how? I need to start, but how?
Loosing my grip was a topic that I touched in my The Power of Habits post and I feel it’s still lurking in my everyday life… Next week I’m moving to Joensuu. I’m finally gonna pick up my working habits again and I couldn’t be more excited. Maybe I just need to wait a bit longer.
Or maybe all this is about learning to enjoy the moment?
Skirt: Vero Moda
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell
Shirt: Vero Moda
Necklace: Efva Attling
A little different type of post today but I still hope you liked it. This is after all a personal blog and by no means I’m trying to make the impression that I’m all perfect. Nobody is!
Even though my Youtube videos are mostly in Finnish, these types of styling videos are fortunately not bind to any particular language!
The last time I was in Miami, I had to of course make my bf to film couple of my OOTDs and here is the result. I’m still using my iPhone to film these types of videos but I realize that this cannot go on forever ;D Slo-mo is always fun, just remember to watch this in HD !
Now and again we need or want to purchase something new to our wardrobe. We want to update our style to certain season or maybe replace an old piece of clothing. But sometimes we just buy for the sake of buying. Then we most likely end up with a lot a cheap things in our wardrobe that we don’t use and as a result feel frustrated.
I believe that this culture of impulse buying is one of the main reasons for “vaatekriisi” = a Finnish word for clothing crisis / walking up to your wardrobe and have “nothing” to wear.
When you are in the store and thinking about buying something, instead of buying it right away you could ask these questions and determine if the item is worth purchasing.
Does this fit me properly?
I just recently tried out my friend’s old top. It looked amazing on the hanger but when I put it on it was a disaster. Even though I loved the top it wasn’t the right size. So be honest to yourself if you see that something just doesn’t really fit you.
Does this go with majority of my wardrobe?
This one is a huge and important question. You don’t do anything with a piece of clothing that you cannot match to anything that you have in your wardrobe. In this situation you can ask some other questions like “is this my color/style?” Some pants that are amazing but require a pair of higher heels than you own, it’s not worth it. Because after buying those pants you need to purchase new shoes and then maybe you feel the desire to buy a new bag to match the shoes… The list can go on and on until you have the “perfect outfit” to match those one pants and nothing else in your closet.
Does this fit my overall lifestyle?
I’m gonna share a story of one item in my wardrobe…
My boyfriend got me a tennis dress for our first Xmas together in December 2015. In March 2017 (last time when I was in Miami) I wore the dress for the FIRST TIME. Here’s the thing: even if it fits me well, it’s my style and the dress has my “vibe”, if it doesn’t fit my lifestyle: it’s bloody useless.
I don’t play tennis.
In Finland I cannot workout in a dress ’cause it’s so damn cold.
It doesn’t matter how much I treasure the dress (’cause I got it as a present from my love) I’m not going to wear it as often ’cause it has no use. I would have never bought this dress on my own ’cause I know it’s not fitting my lifestyle. But as a present–> okay, I’ll keep it.
You can also ask this kind of question if you aren’t sure what your lifestyle is all about: What does my day/week/month look like? Do you go to school or work 5 times a week? Do you workout a lot? How ’bout going out with your friends? You get the general idea. The math here is simple: the more you spend time doing something the more you can spend money on it and purchase a new items if necessary. I will cover this topic on another blogpost in more depth so follow my blog or facebook page to get the notification 😉
Is this good quality and ethically made?
Even the best of us have felled into the trap of fast fashion and sales. Usually ended up buying something really cheap that wasn’t good quality. The goal is to have a wardrobe that lasts. If you have to buy new tops every month ’cause the quality sucks that doesn’t do you any favors. When buying a new winter coat or shoes we really think about the quality ’cause most of us want to wear that same piece for the whole season or two (and preferably even longer). What if you could center that same mentality when buying “ordinary” things like tops and cardigans. This will also cut down the amount of impulse purchases because you really look for the quality not the quantity.
Same goes for ethicality. I still do have clothes from fast fashion companies but because they are still in good shape I don’t see why I should toss them out right away. You can also read my post I wrote earlier about transitioning to more ethical wardrobe here. But next time you want to buy something: think about the journey of that piece of clothing. Who made it? With what salary? And how? Kristen Leo is one of my favorite ethical fashion Youtubers and I highly recommend her channel and her post that consist a list of many ethical clothing brands but remember to always do your own research.
Is this worth the price?
Well sales and fast fashion are the issues here too. Check the price. Is it really cheap? Why is it? Is it really expensive? Why is that? Now you can look at the quality and see if it matches the price. Something like polyester isn’t really worth a lot but some brands still tend to make those items seemingly expensive and put the price tag accordingly. I remember buying a coat for a fair amount of money only later realizing that the material didn’t really match the price and so my coat was done in one season. But that’s the purpose–> so you would go again and buy a new one. Also you can ask that if this was twice as much would I still get it? “High” fashion brands sell T-shirts for a VERY expensive price, yes the quality may be better but would you really be prepared to buy just one T-shirt for 60€. Different thing if it was ethically made but still…
I was discussing this issue with my boyfriend. He really wanted to buy pair of jeans but they costed 90 dollars. They fitted him nicely and were really unique. Then the next day he was still thinking about those pants and asking me if he should buy them or not. I asked him how much he intended to wear those jeans. He has 3-4 jeans but not in that color he was craving. So after a quick calculation he was going to wear those jeans 100+ days from a whole year. Then I asked him to divide the cost so 90 dollars for those 100 days. Quickly those jeans didn’t seem so expensive if he could spare one dollar each time his was going to wear those jeans.
The problem here is that we really don’t know how much we are going to wear a certain item before we get it into our wardrobe but doing a quick calculation like this could help in deciding whether or not something is worth buying.
Do I really love it?
Some items may be our color, good quality with fair price and fitting nicely. BUT if the reaction you still feel is “naah” instead of “OMG THIS *fill in the blank* IS SO ME” I would still consider leaving that for someone else who feels like that about that certain item. Just imagine that you would have a wardrobe full of clothes that you absolutely love? Wouldn’t that be the ideal? But that won’t happen if you keep filling your closet with things that really don’t get you excited.
If all else fails try to imagine 3-5 outfits you would style the piece in. Accessories are a bit easier but for example green printed leggings are another story.
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